keluarga bahagia

mcm manekah sebuah keluarga itu dikira bahagia?? keluarga saya bahagiakah? mungkin semue org nampak sesebuah keluarga normal itu bahagia. tapi persoalannye bahagiakah mereka? well to me my family financially is just ok. xde masalah cume love. i think that is really one big of a problem here. sebab itu saye lebih menyayangi org yg menyayangi saya lebih dprd mereke2 yg sepatutnye. ok like just now ibu ajak makan. i wasnt hungry pun. but in order to have the happy family that i dream of so saya pun kedapur utk makan bersama keluarga. alangkah xtaulah saya nak kate ape. adik xnak makan die lebih rele tido. bapk pun katenyer xlapar lagi. so korg bayangkan kalau saya pun xnak makan jugak. xkesian ker ibu saya yg dah penat memasak lepas tu makan sorg2. so walaupun saya x lapar. saya makan jugak. ade sambal tempoyak saye ngn ibu beli durian semalam kat tesco. rm5 sebiji repeat sebiji bukan sekilo. murah gile!! tapi sebab kitorg ni pmpuan(xtau ade kene mengene ker x)kitorg xpandai pilih durian. hampeh betul! so beli 4 biji jer sebab nak cukupkan rm20. nak beli banyak2 tkt beli yg x elok. nak beli sikit harge murah pulak. nilah perempuan dilemma selalu sgt mcm ni.hahaha so smbg balik cerita, saya pun makanlah sambal tempoyak tu. thnk god die pedas so xde lah boring sgt makan kan walaupun xlapar. and i made alot of effort in making the conversation with her.i told her about zera. yg zera tu dulu sekolah rendah same2 kat sacred heart then jumpelah kwn2 lame yg lain 8 tahun x jumpe bagai.hahaha cerita psl aben sakit semue ape doktor cakap. then ade lagi some of the things yg x ingatlah. well my point is what is the definition of keluarga bahagia?? bahagiakah keluarga anda? saye harap kalau ade rezeki saya membina masjid, saya mengharapkan masjid itu riuh rendah walaupun yg ade hanya like 3/4 people only. one more secret to tell i have i think around 12/13 family members including ipars. tapi bile semue balik gather pun my house mcm ade 3/4 people saje. this is actually the main reason kenape saya rase family saya xcukup bahagia.bukan x bahagia tapi xcukup. well i've been to khalish's and mereka sangat bising. i love it! alot the mother aunties not uncles nahhhh the grandmother anf the late grandfather semue mengalukan kedatangan kami..me and ejat. we talked alot. they treat me like family. anak buah khalish lagilah...cute2 jer.hahaha well i never been to wan's. hes very close to his family especially the mother. that is good news. hahaha ok y i never been to him its cuz its different. pg kg khalish i went there as his fren. sebab ade kenduri kesyukuran and i went there with a fren. tapi kalau pergi ke rumah wan ianya adalah suicide. terlalu banyak things that i have to count. what if i act nonsense and the parents dislike. im just not ready. well my parents pun ade issue jugak so i think these parents issues we just cant face it later... we'll face the music together. i love u.

sem break!!

hai hai uolls....sekarang seha sedang berbreaking hahaha cuti midterm. satu hari seha tggu awak call. akhirnya awak call. saya tau awak bz. xpe haih takut plak ape yg tity cakap tu menjadi kenyataan. hish type pakai laptop ni habis terkangkang kangkang jari den dibuatnyer. kalau keyboard comp tu kecik skit. sebab banyak lagi bnde nak sumbat kan nombor sume bagai. syukur2 cepat!! allhamdulillah ade laptop. hahaha ok cuti midterm ni okaylah my relationship with everyone seems to be better. thnk Allah for that i think those gaps is such a need.mmg good idealah x balik rumah the past 3 weeks. i can talk at least alittle bit here and there with him. haih family crisis is such a nuisance. and im gonna miss sir hafiz. seminggu xdapat jumpe ni. alot of things going on and i seems to be alittle aroused. i thought i can evade from being like them but im wrong!very! im turning into one and im scared that its gonna last. hell no okay. this is aint permanent!ok enough of that. we made up!!! god tq! tq tq tq. hahahahha gosh fought like damn. it cost me to loose him. wow! itu adalah perkara yg menakutkan. i asked some people and they have their own reasons on doing things their way so i guess u do too. iits just that just spill on me ok. i cant read i conclude! that is just me. drive myself crazy each time. ouh and one more dooms news! kita adalah diwajibkan memakai baju kurung setiap hari! repeat setiap hari! theheck man???uitm uitmlah jgn nak act mcm some boarding school or matrix cuz u're not! repeat u're not! bencilah...i hate wearing baju kurung. dahlah suruh pakai hari isnin dahlah nak ape lagi?? heels somemore?? apeni ape ni? xnak!!!! kalau tipu dari start mesti semue ni xjadi tapi lain plak masalah yg datang.ahhhh no jeans tu yg lagi rase mcm say what???? hahahaha this is a joke.i discovered a young talented girl carly rose sonenclar. shes 13 sumpah nyanyi best tapi x sebest leona lewis and celine dion lah... but shes good dang good. cuz shes only 13 suare die x mature lagi so okay per. at least u called. thats the most important matter. cuz my fren once said the thought that counts. well said farid well said. cuti piqa plak pergi umrah. best wishes for u my dear.. and bitch from indon is going to kelantan and ganu haih... me alone again. nana only arrive next week. hmmm botaklah tmpt berteman nampak gayenyer. alan is like so bz god knows why. hate him! so we'll c how my midterm break goes. first thing tomorrow is to grab a bite of the damn prosperity burger with adik. boring but do i have a choice?? XOXO

A weeeee week of HEAVEN

i spent my first week berfoya2 sane sini.. well where to start huh. hmmm first day of a new sem went to midvalley with the girls fisya and mai. later alep persie jackson joined. tu pun mcm dah lambat. then kitorg decided not to go home straight. actually it was alep's idea. not us girls seriously. hahaha kitorg pergi downtown in cheras. buat facial just me henna us girls and some steamboat to filled up.what a pleasant night huh. and i got myself a whole bunch of new jeans and blouses. cant be more happier than that. so so so so gay! ok enough of midvalley story lets move on next: a couple of days apart we me baba n zer decided to go to melaka. so i called wan and invite him over. but then i guessed something came up, he refuses. was a bit upset but theres nothing much i can do. so he comes the hero. hero of the year goes tooooo alep imran mazwin! jeng jeng hahaha susah tau nak console alep.the next morning we waited for alep for damn hours let me repeat for hourssssss. die lambat 2/3hours mcm tu. alep alep....hahahaha here we go trip to melaka. my fav melaka. pergi every single shop yg ade dekat dataran pahlawan and mahkota parade. alep was so so so choosy was so ok! mmg particular gler with the sleeves cutting shape colours and so on... rase nak strangle die to death pun ade jugak. for 9 hours non stop seha teman alep shopping. adelah i got something for myself too haha how can i not??jeng jeng. ouh and me and alep got separated from the others. just to spice things up we went to BR and shillin and hot rolls. hahaha eat much huh. yeay got to astray a bit from the clothes shoes and fabrics. and both of us our phone mati.MATI mmg terkejut shocked habis but theres nothing we can do. hahaha kene tggu mereka dekat kereta. nasib baik ade mcfizz penghilang haus. sumpah haus gler lepas makan aiskrim semue. sampai kolej around 1 o clock like that. frankly speaking that day went out for like 12 hours... hmmm tiring a few days later cuz i got so bored of this place, and wan was bz with his plan and stuff i called up my sis and told her i want to crash at her place. god thank heaven.im just so tired to type everything. but i love wan made him a keychain and bought him a flip flop same as mine. hahaha love grows each day.. stronger think so. at least thats what i felt. it feels like our communication has improved so much that i can tell him how i felt.well about things. thats good right. so im just gonna post some pictures for u r me cuz nobody really read this post anyway hahaha.. some cool stuff i tried in melaka jonker is the best place ever. haaha still my fav walaupun dah datang there like thousand times...

Tough ride

this week rase mcm sedih jer... today rase serba xkene asyik rasenak marah the whole day. maybe i was tired i dont know.abang mie buat hal lagi geram betul!x serik ker yg dulu tu.nana xpernah marah suke2 hati.i know her very well die hanyer rampage kalau hal tu besar.kenape lah awak x learnt the lesson abang mie? kenape buat kakak saye sedih. saye sayang abang mie tapi haih abang mie xfikir seha ker x fikir adik? kitrg sayang abang mie dah mcm abang sendiri. besides awak mmg bakal abang ipar kitorg pun. awak tu idol adik tau.luqman sanjung sgt abang mie. kenapelah abang mie. seha xmampu nak tlg ape2.abang punkenalkan kakak. when shes right shes right.u cant never make it the other way round.never!hahaha tau x seha rase penat sgt nak ulang2 hari2 dekat luqman man dah kemas aben? dah bagi die makan? dah bersihkan rumah die? dah sapu lantai? seha penattt sangat seha rae nak nangis.Allah jer tau betape penatnyer seha ulang bnde yg same hari2. awak dah besar tau. xboleh ker fikir sendiri??perlu ker achik cakap setiap hari? achik balik kerja penat tambah lagi dgn man yg perangai lansung x matang. seha baru jadi seorang kakak belum lagi jadi seorang mak.seha x taulah ibu pernah menangis kerx besarkan kitorg adik beradik ni. mesti pernah. sebab seha pun xtahan dgn perangai luqman inikan ibu bersabar dgn kitorg 6 beradik.all i need is a person that can hug me every single night for me o go through shits during the day. seha sedih sangat fikirkan nana ya Allah ko bagilh die ketenangan ko xtaulah ya Allah masalah otak ape yg abang mie ade tu. Kau insafkanlah die.i just hope for my sister to be happy. that is all! i can live without everyone but not her. shes my parents bestfren everything..dan luqman matanglah cepat kesian kat ibu nak hadap ke mu hok se lagi tue parok doh otok dok mikir.siang tet tapi aku damboh capur. just another week. then i really hope for a new start. truthfully i love u. though we never get together laugh and enjoy moments of being a family but if anything im here for u. im still a lajis's anyway.moreover family sticks through shits and hell :D